Almost exactly one year ago, I wrote a blog about fear, titled "Conquering Fear". I said that I would make a follow-up post.
Fear seems to always be knocking on the door, seeking to creep in. But there is absolutely no reason for fear to take root in our lives- FEAR IS NOT OUR PORTION.
The last time I wrote about fear, a lot of insecurity and fear came up in the midst of writing. I mentioned that the enemy, satan, only has intimidation. He doesn't have any power, and he knows that! We just need to remember Whose we are AND who we are. Through truth we expose the enemy, and his tactics fail.
I've heard it said that, "Your greatest weakness is a prophecy of your greatest breakthrough". I mentioned how the enemy sought to steal my voice and for a few years he succeeded, but the more I found Jesus, the more I received healing, and the more I received healing the more I found who I was, thus realizing my voice needs to be heard.
I thought it was significant to be writing about fear once again. My church back home did a 40-day fast. I asked the Lord what I should fast, thinking it might be meats, sweets, coffee, social media, or something like that. But no, that wasn't anywhere close to what He wanted me to fast. He wanted me to fast fear, but not just fast fear- He wanted to make fearlessness a lifestyle.
Having no clue what that looked like, I gave God my slightly nervous and unsure "yes", but a "yes" nonetheless. The first fear He targeted? I was afraid to come back to David's Tent because I felt like a failure. I was afraid of coming back and being pushed back to square one. I was afraid of coming back and having everything be familiar yet completely different. I was afraid of a couple other things about coming back. Fear was showing in the form of insecurity, and the Lord clearly told me insecurity is not a part of me. In spite of these insecurities and this fear, I knew the last word from the Lord I received was to commit to David's Tent full-time.
So what did I do? I pushed through fear and came back to D.C., stepping into a season that would prove to have triggers along the road- but triggers that were for my good- for greater healing and protection.
Fear seems to always be knocking on the door, seeking to creep in. But there is absolutely no reason for fear to take root in our lives- FEAR IS NOT OUR PORTION.
The last time I wrote about fear, a lot of insecurity and fear came up in the midst of writing. I mentioned that the enemy, satan, only has intimidation. He doesn't have any power, and he knows that! We just need to remember Whose we are AND who we are. Through truth we expose the enemy, and his tactics fail.
I've heard it said that, "Your greatest weakness is a prophecy of your greatest breakthrough". I mentioned how the enemy sought to steal my voice and for a few years he succeeded, but the more I found Jesus, the more I received healing, and the more I received healing the more I found who I was, thus realizing my voice needs to be heard.
I thought it was significant to be writing about fear once again. My church back home did a 40-day fast. I asked the Lord what I should fast, thinking it might be meats, sweets, coffee, social media, or something like that. But no, that wasn't anywhere close to what He wanted me to fast. He wanted me to fast fear, but not just fast fear- He wanted to make fearlessness a lifestyle.
Having no clue what that looked like, I gave God my slightly nervous and unsure "yes", but a "yes" nonetheless. The first fear He targeted? I was afraid to come back to David's Tent because I felt like a failure. I was afraid of coming back and being pushed back to square one. I was afraid of coming back and having everything be familiar yet completely different. I was afraid of a couple other things about coming back. Fear was showing in the form of insecurity, and the Lord clearly told me insecurity is not a part of me. In spite of these insecurities and this fear, I knew the last word from the Lord I received was to commit to David's Tent full-time.
So what did I do? I pushed through fear and came back to D.C., stepping into a season that would prove to have triggers along the road- but triggers that were for my good- for greater healing and protection.
The enemy seeks to steal the promises God has spoken.
I was wounded at David's Tent, and I had a fear of stepping back into a place where the wounds were fresh because I would actually have to DEAL with the wounds and seek healing. The enemy didn't want me to go back and receive healing, he wanted me to remain broken. But the Lord's desire was for healing and restoration to endure in the depths and entirety of my heart.
And I'm SO GLAD I came back to David's Tent! The Lord is kind, He has drawn me nearer and nearer to Him- jealous for me- and desiring to lavish me with His love. I had to choose to come back though. I believe the Lord is wanting to deeper works in each of our hearts, but we have to be willing to choose Him and restoration in Him, over our comfort zone! A comfort zone that is more a limitation than comfort. Real life begins beyond the bounds of a false sense of comfort.
And I'm SO GLAD I came back to David's Tent! The Lord is kind, He has drawn me nearer and nearer to Him- jealous for me- and desiring to lavish me with His love. I had to choose to come back though. I believe the Lord is wanting to deeper works in each of our hearts, but we have to be willing to choose Him and restoration in Him, over our comfort zone! A comfort zone that is more a limitation than comfort. Real life begins beyond the bounds of a false sense of comfort.
Do NOT miss out on the redemption the Lord has for you because of fear! Do not allow fear to rob you of ANYTHING the Lord has planned for you, because we know that God and His plans are good!
Since then, the Lord has given me boldness to speak up in group settings, reach out to strangers to encourage and pray for them, go days without wearing makeup (though I still wear makeup because I think it's fun), write songs, sing with more boldness, take on new responsibilities, and ultimately care less about what people think and focus on God.
I had two dreams yesterday.
In the first dream, my ex came up to me and asked to talk to me outside. I said, "okay", and then thought "I'm glad he approached me. If I would have approached him, he probably would have rejected me." There was no more to this dream.
In the 2nd dream, I was a student in a classroom. As the instructor taught, students could ask questions and any of us could respond. The teacher would make a statement, and each time a student asked a question, I would raise my hand and respond. It happened over and over, where I was quick to respond and proclaim truth to my peers.
The Lord showed me that the two dreams were connected. The first highlighted the fact that I had fear of rejection in my heart. The second highlighted how much the Lord could move in and through me, when I wasn't hindered by fear of rejection. The students in the classroom were all on the fence. They were either believers who were questioning God, or nonbelievers who were searching for more. Either way, they could either fall into God's light or fall away from it. The Lord showed me that each time I spoke up, He was bringing healing, clarity, vision and understanding to them, and they came more into alignment with God each time I spoke His truth.
I had two dreams yesterday.
In the first dream, my ex came up to me and asked to talk to me outside. I said, "okay", and then thought "I'm glad he approached me. If I would have approached him, he probably would have rejected me." There was no more to this dream.
In the 2nd dream, I was a student in a classroom. As the instructor taught, students could ask questions and any of us could respond. The teacher would make a statement, and each time a student asked a question, I would raise my hand and respond. It happened over and over, where I was quick to respond and proclaim truth to my peers.
The Lord showed me that the two dreams were connected. The first highlighted the fact that I had fear of rejection in my heart. The second highlighted how much the Lord could move in and through me, when I wasn't hindered by fear of rejection. The students in the classroom were all on the fence. They were either believers who were questioning God, or nonbelievers who were searching for more. Either way, they could either fall into God's light or fall away from it. The Lord showed me that each time I spoke up, He was bringing healing, clarity, vision and understanding to them, and they came more into alignment with God each time I spoke His truth.
The Lord is faithful to rid us of fear, because PERFECT LOVE CASTS OUT FEAR, and God is love, and freely does He give Himself to us. So we are covered in perfect love, thus fear has no power in our lives because Jesus has already overcome!
Do you have fear in your life? Please, do not allow fear to overwhelm you. Please do not allow fear to hold you back from all that God has for you.
I have learned a lot about overcoming fear, and one of the things I have found to be important is your perspective.
I have learned a lot about overcoming fear, and one of the things I have found to be important is your perspective.
Remember to keep your eyes focused on Jesus and not on your fear.
Remember that God is WAY BIGGER than your fear or anything you could face.
Remember that God never leaves or forsakes you.
Remember that God is FOR YOU!
Remember that you are more than a conqueror!
Remember who your GOD is, and that He is unstoppable!
If there is ANY fear in your heart, do not allow it to silence you or intimidate you. Reach out to the Lord, reach out to me. The Lord and I want to see you set free from fear.
May God's love abound more and more in your heart. So be bold, be brave, be courageous for you were made for far more. The best is yet to come.
May God's love abound more and more in your heart. So be bold, be brave, be courageous for you were made for far more. The best is yet to come.