Doubt comes in to say the Father isn't good; it comes in to say you made the wrong choice, it comes in to say the Lord isn't faithful, it comes in deceit and seeks to steal or hinder you from receiving the fullness that God has for you.
I'm excited for the season I'm just now embarking on. I want to be clear though- it's not easy at all.
My heart has been anxious, beginning the moment I was on the plane and realized the flight I was on was the seal to the ending of a season that changed my life. This anxiousness wasn't positive, it was painful- to the point of having to gasp for air while covering my mouth with my hand to better stop from breaking out in tears. I'm all for crying and giving my emotions a release, but I wasn't up for the vulnerability during this travel day.
Doubt flooded my mind. The main one being- DID I MAKE THE RIGHT DECISION to leave and step away from everything I was now familiar with, and follow Jesus forward into the unknown. Was my decision to leave David's Tent from the Lord or did I, in a moment, make a rash decision I would later regret?
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Beloved, find rest in the Lord. All I knew to do, as I sat on the plane praying under my breath, was to read my Bible. This is honestly the first time I read it for hours on end while on a plane. It was the only thing that would give me peace. Jesus is peace.
I came to realize, this first official day of being home and not living in 24/7 community, that the enemy was seeking to place the wedge of doubt in between me and God. But I refuse to doubt my God! I know that I know that I know that I know that I made the right choice! I prayed and felt peace and joy in my heart, the moment He released me from a season that I surrendered nearly everything for, in order to say yes to God! I felt incredible excitement when the Lord told me He wanted me to intentionally dream with Him, trust Him and step out, with the promise that He would never leave me, redefine my vision, bring clarity, and set my heart on fire with passion, purpose and a greater understanding of my calling and destiny.
I still don't know what's next. I find it hard to not know what's next. It's freeing in many ways, and I'm already doing the things that make my heart come alive, but I miss things as they were.
This is because I see what's behind me, but not necessarily in front of me. I like what's behind me. But I have to believe God has greater and better things before me. In spite of not yet seeing what lies before me. I just know God's with me, leading me forward with His hand in mine.
Faith doesn't come easy, although I believe it should because it means putting your trust more and more on the only One who will never let us down- Jesus! We can't doubt the goodness and faithfulness of God!
I want to encourage you to not doubt God even a little bit. Should you ever veer off path, God is faithful to lead you back. But just because your eyes don't see and your circumstances don't match the promises God has given you- doesn't mean God's unfaithful! It means you need to declare the goodness of God and the fulfillment of all that He has ever spoken over you and planned for you, until you see with your eyes what your heart believes!
God is more for you than you realize.
Yeah, I still don't know what God has planned, other than the fact that He told me to trust Him and that He is able to bless me abundantly, so that in all things at all times, I will have all that I need and abound in every good work. He came to give us life and life abundantly, and He created us with purpose. He is intentional to lead us. He knows just what we need. Let your faith arise and trust the Lord with all your heart, mind, soul and strength. Choose not to lean on your own understanding but lean on your Beloved- He will not let you down.
The best is yet to come. Trust the Lord. He has the best plans for you. ❤️