Sounds pretty nice, right? It is nice, but it's hard! I'm back home, in the city and the state that I first loved, but a lot has changed- I've changed. I find myself in this "limbo" season where I have no roots, nor do I even know where I belong. I'm in a season of rest, I'm in a season of enjoying the Lord- but I'm longing to be a part of something! Do you forget that the Lord fully knows your heart and HE placed dreams and desires within your heart!? The Lord knows I want to be a part of something, but He also knows I need to grow in my identity. It's not about what you do- it's about who God is and who He says you are!
I realized I found such identity in what I do, and the Lord has pulled me away from anything that I have found identity in to remind me who I am first and foremost- His daughter, the beloved daughter of the King of kings.
The scariest part of this season is that the Lord is calling me to a greater level of faith.
“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.”
Hebrews 11:1 NKJV
Come next Wednesday, I'm embarking on a journey. Stopping in a few places (in Canada and the United States), as the Lord leads and allows, to visit, love, pour into, serve and/or celebrate my friends, family and new friends along the way. I have a couple flights in place, and most of my housing covered- but still have no clue how I'll get from some locations to some others, let alone eat. I just know that I am to seek God first and I am to delight myself in Him, and He will add unto me all the other things I need.
I don't know what's next. I see a few steps, but even those aren't lit brightly. Yes, I'm nervous! But I'm so expectant!!! Opportunities like this don't always come, and maybe not every person would go for it- but I was made for adventure, I was made for fellowship with my God, I was made to live and love fully and freely- spreading life, joy, hope, peace, purpose and especially love wherever I go!
Sometimes it seems like the Lord is asking us to take a risk or to do something crazy. Sometimes the things He lays before you or asks you to do don't fully make sense. But whatever it may be that the Lord has asked you to do, even if it's a bit scary- GO FOR IT.
Spread your wings out wide- you were born to fly! The world is too big and too in need to not take the risk and go forth as the Spirit leads. I'm excited for this journey, I'm excited to see where I land. The best way to land well is to leave the confounds and comfort of the nest. But once you're in the wide open skies, being carried by the wind in the sky and the strength of your wings, you will realize you are alive! God is a good God, He's a good Father. Live in the fullness and abundance He has promised- for He who promised is faithful, and faithful to the end.