Sometimes we have to fall to learn. I wish we could learn without having to learn the hard way, but sometimes that's what is needed. Back in February God asked me if I would be willing to commit 6 months of singleness to Him. I gladly said yes, only to break this commitment just a couple weeks later. I suppressed my heart and many parts of my identity, who I am and the things that make me me. I experienced heartbreak like I've never experienced it before, and I found myself face down on the ground crying out to God to help me because I could not do this on my own. I got myself into a mess that I did not have the strength to get myself out of.
Oh my goodness, am I thankful I hit such low point. I found myself in utter need of the Lord, I was DESPERATE for Him- I needed Him to intervene and sustain my life (which He has always sustained my life). I realized how much I didn't believe my value, my worth and how much I needed to discover more of the love of God, more of my identity and more of the virtues and beliefs that I know to be true!
I've found that the Lord sought to prevent me from walking through heartbreak, He sought to prevent me from suppressing my heart and He sought to see me fully thriving these last few months. I believe the way He sought to protect me was by asking me to not date. He knew I was going to get into a relationship that was not healthy. Did it surprise Him that I chose to date my ex? No, not at all. Did it disappoint Him? Yes, I really believe it did. I believe that because Jesus loves me A LOT. I don't believe He wants to see me hurt, but if I'm hurt, He wants to be the 1st one I look to, He wants to be the first one to embrace me, hold me close and tell me that He loves me and is never leaving me!
I'm so blessed to think that God works all things out for our good! So even the biggest mess I get myself into, the Lord still works it out for good. HOW INCREDIBLE IS THAT!?!? The Lord is always good He is always faithful and oh my goodness is He kind.
We're sons and daughters of God. We need to cry out to the Lord to let us see ourselves as He sees us. We need to cry out to the Lord to give us revelation of HIS love for us! I've found that as I press into the Lord, as I increase my prayer life, as I try to focus on Him more and more, as I learn to take thoughts captive, as I learn to trust Him and lean on Him, I'm finding myself. As I'm finding myself in Him, I'm realizing more and more just how deep His love for me is. He loves us SO much. It doesn't matter what we've done, who we've been, how we've compromised, how we've rebelled or anything- the Lord is JEALOUS for us!
Oh my goodness, am I thankful I hit such low point. I found myself in utter need of the Lord, I was DESPERATE for Him- I needed Him to intervene and sustain my life (which He has always sustained my life). I realized how much I didn't believe my value, my worth and how much I needed to discover more of the love of God, more of my identity and more of the virtues and beliefs that I know to be true!
I've found that the Lord sought to prevent me from walking through heartbreak, He sought to prevent me from suppressing my heart and He sought to see me fully thriving these last few months. I believe the way He sought to protect me was by asking me to not date. He knew I was going to get into a relationship that was not healthy. Did it surprise Him that I chose to date my ex? No, not at all. Did it disappoint Him? Yes, I really believe it did. I believe that because Jesus loves me A LOT. I don't believe He wants to see me hurt, but if I'm hurt, He wants to be the 1st one I look to, He wants to be the first one to embrace me, hold me close and tell me that He loves me and is never leaving me!
I'm so blessed to think that God works all things out for our good! So even the biggest mess I get myself into, the Lord still works it out for good. HOW INCREDIBLE IS THAT!?!? The Lord is always good He is always faithful and oh my goodness is He kind.
We're sons and daughters of God. We need to cry out to the Lord to let us see ourselves as He sees us. We need to cry out to the Lord to give us revelation of HIS love for us! I've found that as I press into the Lord, as I increase my prayer life, as I try to focus on Him more and more, as I learn to take thoughts captive, as I learn to trust Him and lean on Him, I'm finding myself. As I'm finding myself in Him, I'm realizing more and more just how deep His love for me is. He loves us SO much. It doesn't matter what we've done, who we've been, how we've compromised, how we've rebelled or anything- the Lord is JEALOUS for us!
Romans 8:37-39
"Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
We can't be settling for the temptation of the enemy. My prayer is that you and I continue to grow in understanding how much the Lord loves us. May we be so captivated by His love and His presence that everything in the world runs dry, that His love is the only thing that satisfies. May we grow in confidence because truly are we secure in His love. May we see the beauty He has created us with and the purpose He has destined us for.
Who you are matters.
What you do matters.
What you have to say matters.
Your life matters!
Dive into the Lord. Let Him tell you who you are. Let Him help you uncover your value and worth. Your life will be transformed when you know and believe your identity, value and worth. Love you all. Know that I am praying for you. Be blessed in His name!
Who you are matters.
What you do matters.
What you have to say matters.
Your life matters!
Dive into the Lord. Let Him tell you who you are. Let Him help you uncover your value and worth. Your life will be transformed when you know and believe your identity, value and worth. Love you all. Know that I am praying for you. Be blessed in His name!